Once upon a time, I was the light in your eyes,

The breath in your laugh, the truth in your lies.

You called me your world, your reason, your fate,

Now I’m a chapter you’ve learned to erase.

You said she’s your family, your other half,

While I choke on the ghost of our broken path.

I thought you were home, I thought you were mine,

But you closed that door without a sign.

You spoke her name like a final spell,

And left me standing in my own hell.

I waited for you through sleepless months,

Through whispered prayers and burning tears.

You said she’s expecting your new sunrise,

While I drowned in the dark behind my eyes.

You say we’re now friends, but that word cuts deep,

I bleed in the spaces where memories sleep.

You ask me to be happy; I’m trying my best,

But you judge me for crying, for being this mess.

That’s how I feel, broken and torn,

Once upon a time loved, now utterly worn.

How are you so okay, so calm, so sure,

While I’m still haunted by what was pure?

You said I’ll feel better, it only takes three weeks,

But pain doesn’t listen when memory speaks.

I can’t bear the thought of her skin near yours,

Of laughter blooming behind closed doors.

It drives me insane, the things I know,

Yet you call me crazy for letting it show.

What happened to love through thick and thin,

To holding my hand when storms begin?

You said we’d grow old, you’d never depart,

Now you’ve rewritten the map of my heart.

You met me when I was unraveling, torn,

And found her when she was polished, reborn.

I was still waiting, while you turned the page,

I was still holding, while you disengaged.

I told you, if you go, I’ll lose my breath,

That without you, I’d choose my death.

You turned away, your heart turned stone,

And left me fighting this pain alone.

You sold what we had for someone new,

For a month-old story that outgrew truth.

How quickly warmth can turn to ice,

How love can fade in borrowed light.

And though I wish you joy, though my heart’s still sore,

Once upon a time, I was yours.

I keep on trying, yet I fall,
Each step I take becomes a wall.
The harder I push, the weaker I seem,
Strength dissolves like a half-woken dream.

The closer I look, the less I pretend,
Confidence crumbles, I fail to defend.
Family’s love holds me near,
But only their presence keeps me here.

Each night I prayed for death’s release,
A quiet fading, a gentle peace.
But universe was deaf, the stars turned away,
Born to be punished, or so they say.

I’ve tasted the hunger of endless desire,
Dreams that ignite yet burn in the fire.
Worked and I labored, but never enough,
My efforts discarded, the journey too rough.

So weak I became, I wrote my goodbye,
A letter to shadows, a plea to the sky.
I begged every night for an end I could choose
Why is our death not ours to use?

Why isn’t there a medicine
for the wounds that never bleed?
The ones that hide in everyday,
and grow from things we need.

Why does love arrive like lightning,
yet leave like winter rain?

You touch it once, it brands the skin,
but time won’t draw it thin.
It hums beneath the silence,
like something softly in.

Why does ache rise before the morning light?
Does the dark become our skin?
Am I built for storms, not sun?

Some move like water through the world
I am the stillness water leaves behind.

Why does the end feel closer than the climb?
Is there light for hearts like mine
or does the dark become our skin?

I keep wondering why I was born to ache,
To carry the weight no one could take.
They say it’s experience, they say it’s growth,
But pain has become my binding oath.

I smile when they say keep fighting through,
As if the light owes me something new.
But truth is, I’m tired, hollow, and small,
It’s easier now to feel nothing at all.

I’ve always been the second choice,
The silent name behind the noise.
Unchosen, unseen, I bore the blame,
Until hope itself forgot my name.

I didn’t ask to walk this Earth,
To bear this body, this cursed birth.
If souls could choose, I’d never be,
A story written so cruelly.

Yet here I am, without a say,
Breathing pain into every day.
They say I shouldn’t long to leave,
But why should I stay, just to grieve?

I’ve had enough of empty tries,
Of endless lows, of brittle highs.
I’m tired of faith that never lands,
Of prayers dissolving in my hands.

Since seven years, it’s been the same,
Different faces, same old pain.
And every dawn repeats the night,
A constant war I never fight.

Why me? What lesson can remain,
When every step still bleeds the same?
If there’s a purpose, let it show,
Because I am tired of not knowing.

I knew your soul before your face,
Across the threads that time can’t erase.
Through life and death, through joy and pain,
We swore to find each other again.

I watched you fade, your spirit torn,
And loved you still through every storm.
Your name still echoes in my chest,
A ghost that never learns to rest.

We met again, as strangers do,
But something ancient stirred in you.
A flicker passed, a silent flame,
You almost called me by my name.

I felt it too, that ache, that spark,
A memory burning through the dark.
But time erased what hearts recalled,
And left our fate again forestalled.

They say that love can never die,
But ours keeps asking how and why.
We find, we lose, we start anew,
A circle I’m forever through.

If one more life will let us meet,
I’ll know your voice, your pulse, your heat.
And if this world still pulls us apart,
I’ll wait for you inside my heart.

Standing in the entry of Haqqani Highway

several guidance patrols coming my way

We are the moral security

You are not serving purity

My hair is not showing

But they force me in to going

Pushing and grabbing me

I don’t think they’ll set me free

Leave her! why do you push and grab

She’s not wearing an inappropriate hijab

My sister’s hijab is worn appropriately

We never get stopped in this city

She is under arrest

Go away you pest

Punch him on his chest

I’ll handle the rest

My sister is innocent

I know she looks magnificent

Hit him hard

We are the guard

Leave my brother alone

Soon hell be on his own

Kiaresh is out of breath

They have beaten him to death

Take her to the detention centre

Don’t let anyone enter

In the van you pretty swan

It’s called a briefing class in Iran

Hit her hard

We are the guard

Please stop I am scared

There’s more to come be prepared

Please don’t hit me…let me go

Time to educate you like a pro

I feel dizzy, let me go

Let’s all line up in a row

I feel weak let me go

Hit her harder head to toe

I am dying let me go

Not just yet... die slow

May the word not forget this

Say goodbye with a kiss

Hit her hard

We are the guard

You can beat until I die

I’ll never say goodbye

Keep her legs spread

Make sure she is dead

Hit her hard

We are the guard

To the women of Iran

I am beaten but I won

Women Life Freedom

Zan Zendegi Azadi

Zhin Zhyan Azadi

Hit her hard

We are the guard

Hit her hard

We are the guard

Fight for your rights

As I follow the light

I am Jina Mahsa Amini

Say my name

Let me make you your fav chai

Don't poison me, I don't want to die

Tonight let's stay awake and look up high

Maybe we'll see a shooting star by chance

We'll make a wish and then we'll dance

Young girl, why you crying?

Don't you believe in miracles?

Life works your way when you're reciprocal

God, please hear me, I beg

It all began with his right leg

He couldn't even walk through the gate

How much longer do I have to wait?

I've stayed up all night and prayed

Stay strong, young girl, don't be afraid

Actually, say goodbye, the cancer has spread

Anticipating a miracle

Your pain was unbearable

You told me you were unbreakable

But the doctors said you're not save-able

You have to take away his pain young girl,

I need to inject his vein

His blood is not flowing

Sorry to say, but he's slowly going

Doctor, please do something!

Get his heart pumping again

It seemed like a game

But that's how it ends

I never got to say goodbye

And now 24 years have gone

by It feels like yesterday

We used to dance and play

I know you don't feel your best

But try to get some rest

Nothing's wrong with me

But I'll have a cup of tea

Take this medicine, it helps

I know your mind is somewhere else

I'm trying to catch a star

But it just seems too far

Maybe I should get there by car

Young girl, your dad is in a better place

No, you can't visit him in space

Doctor, please find another case

You can't make my dad erase

Young girl, his cancer was spread

He won't return, he's dead

Doctor, do you believe in miracles?

Life works your way when you're reciprocal

Get him out of your head

You still have a life ahead

Nothing's wrong with me, Doctor

I just love collecting saltwater

Do you still hear voices?

You know you can make different choices

We still dance and play

He even visited me today

You need to stay here longer

Soon you'll feel stronger

One, two, three, do it again

I want to play this game

I thought life had just begun

But here goes all the fun

Suddenly, I lost it all

I had no one to call

This wasn't my life's plan

I used to love the sun and tan

You can't choose your destiny

Why do I have to dress funny?

Have a family and kids

No one would want you in a few years

Don't do acting, it brings us shame

Say yes, you don't need to know his name

He is a Kurdish man and has fame

Acting is just a game

Don't show your body, it's a sin

Eat something, you're so thin

You don't need friends, you have me

Don't study, no one cares about your degree

Stay home, cook and clean

Don't make me create a scene

Don't complain, this isn't even mean

I must punish you for being on screen

Okay, I'm sorry, don't go

Let's start again, but slow

Did you ask me for permission?

You know I make all the decisions

Who will want you if you leave?

Do you really believe you'll achieve?

Sorry again, please don't go

I want you, but you are so low

It's all your fault

I only asked for salt

This something we can get through

But I've already met someone new

When you have nowhere to call home

For so long we have been on our own

Feeling left out and alone

To the world we’ve always been unknown Hello? We exist and we are Kurds

For so many years we’ve been unheard

Peshmergas fought for our land

Their families ended up in sand

Kill the Kurds was the command

Bombing Kurdistan was planed

You have no land stop trying

Families getting bombed and dying

Newborn babies left behind crying

children running for their life

Kids getting shot at the age of five

Many others trying to survive

People getting buried alive

Kids hiding from fear

Coming out when it’s clear

Walking past each dead body

Trying to find their mummy

Mum stops the dead game

Dad why do you have to do the same?

It’s hard to breath in this flame

Don’t leave me alone in this mess

What is all this red paint on your dress?

Taking away our rights

So many cold and sleepless nights

Staying in the mountains in fear

Where do we go from here?

The world forgetting about us each year

As we search for a new home

We’d be lucky if we make it to Rome

How can we not have a country

That’s how you live if you want to be free

But we are a big population

But what about our education

We have rules and regulations

This will affect the coming generation

Culture and language and music

We will be no one to the public

To make us no one was their mission

Dreams goals and ambitions

Forget it there will be no:

Musicians, technicians, clinicians

Physicians, magicians, decisions

auditions, visions intuitions….

How is this fair?

Having no opportunity to prepare...

Missing out and living in despair

Not being included with the world is hard

Nowhere to call home is harder